caught myself…

i am very much not a twilight fan, but i love paramore and i love this song.. and some parts… well… its an upbeat reminder to me to ‘catch myself’ and not obsess over him

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lb_3uurEY1I

Down to you
You’re pushing and pulling me down to
But I don’t know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought of you

You’re pushing and pulling me down too
But I don’t know what I want
No I don’t know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You’re leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You’re not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought of you

You’re pushing and pulling me down too
But I don’t know what I want
No I don’t know what I want

Don’t know what I want
But I know it’s not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it’s not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I’m saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it’s not you
I never know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

i do know what i want.. my husband, my family.. but the thoughts of him that creep their way in.. it is almost hypnotic.. and i have to break myself free from my own thoughts..  Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
…i know in my heart its not you…